Raise your hand if you start emails with apologies.
“Sorry it took me so long to reply…”
“I’m sorry your email got lost in the pile…”
“I’m sorry to have missed your thing…”
I’m resisting that urge big-time today. Something happened to offset my commitment to put my thoughts to paper (screen) every other week and I desperately feel the need to apologise for it – like I’ve failed.
I can logically see that yes, life happened in a way that focused my attention away from my plans: I was in a small car accident – no injuries other than my car, but it still turned my world upside down if even briefly.
To be honest, my thoughts were mostly focused on self-indulgent musings about why such a thing happened (the awkward part of believing that we create our own reality) and wracking my brain for the lesson so that I could move on. (As you can imagine, that part hasn’t quite sorted itself out yet.)
Now that I’m back to the land of the living, I find I’m beating myself up for not having done all the shoulds I let fall to the wayside for a few weeks.
Do you ever feel that way?
Like when you set out every morning with the best of intentions for how you’ll eat well and meditate and exercise, only to find yourself at the bottom of a bag of chips by the mid-afternoon.
Or when you write out the agenda of what you’re determined to accomplish in a day and get lost on Facebook for an hour before you even get started.
Or when you decide to recharge the love in your marriage only to be triggered by that thing he says as he walks in the door.
So you feel like you failed, and why do you even try, and you’ll be stuck here forever.
Where did that come from, the belief that a setback is a failure? More importantly, what can you do to get over it?
Two words: perfection paralysis
To loosely quote my friend Casey, that’s the way we freeze our lives to maintain the high standards we set for ourselves in response to high standards society sets for us.
Here are 3 ways to defrost that need for those perfect standards and move forward:
1. Stop trying to do it all at once! (aka take baby steps)
Rather than revamp all your eating habits overnight, take one thing from that list the health coach gave you and do that for a few days before you attempt the next one.
Take one task you want to accomplish today and break it into the 3 steps it actually requires, and let that be your agenda.
Rather than expect rainbows and sunshine, avoid going down the rabbit hole of negativity by giving your man a smile and offer him a fun little piece from your day.
2. Get in touch with your own perfection
Sit quietly, breathe into your belly and open yourself up to the light and love waiting in there (possibly hiding quite deeply) for you to feel it.
This may take a few tries to get…this stuff can be subtle and quiet, especially as compared to the loud and persistent voice of your inner critic and whip-slinger who is always ready to lynch you for the slightest transgression.
Put on a timer for 10 minutes to keep you from getting frustrated or trying too hard. Do it again tomorrow and the next day and the next.
3. Set the bar from the inside
Again, get in touch with that perfect you.
Listen to your body for clues as to what you need, as to what standards you want to adhere, as to what the first next step is.
And here’s the key…possibly even the hardest part: when you’ve got your answer about that step? Take it!
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