Don’t you love that time, after you’ve gone through something big – when activity and thinking and decisions and emotional turmoil seem like a never-ending vortex that would pull you along forever – and things become quiet again? It’s so peaceful, just sitting and letting the dust settle on your new life.
You learn to relax again. You get caught up on a season of Broadchurch. You chat on the phone. It’s so comfortable.
Maybe too comfortable, because that was a few months ago; you’re still in that same spot and the dust is piling up.
You’ve gone from allowing yourself a quiet moment of recharging your batteries to full-on hibernation, and you’re starting to feel gross. Sluggish. Your waistline is expanding and your joints complain whenever you try to move.
Did you really just go through everything you did only to end up here?!?
I so get this. Every time I’ve broken up with someone, every time I’ve moved or changed career paths, I get to a point where I just want to curl up in the comfort zone of what’s easiest. But there’s a fine line between taking a moment of self-care and wallowing.
The beauty of change – whether consciously chosen or from the rug getting ripped out from under you – is that it opens the door to opportunity. Lost your job? What a perfect time to open the shop you’ve always dreamed about. Divorced? You can fall in love again…primarily with yourself.
Yes, it’s ripe with potential! Yet, without channeling some of that potential into movement, into action, you will stagnate and go stale.
Look at the trees this time of year. They’ve been standing still and grey, quietly enduring the cold. At a certain point, the sun gets warm enough and their sap starts to flow again. Life literally pours into their branches and they’re awash with colour and communal activity. Without the sap, its limbs will rot and eventually fall off.
Ok, so your arms may not fall off, but your body will feel the lack of vibrant nourishment over time. As poor health, as weight gain, as depression.
Sure wallowing can be part of the process, but when does it start to hold you back from the next necessary steps? And how can you get back into movement when that stillness feels so good?
Recharging makes conscious choices: to watch some TV or eat a cookie or have a glass of wine while you cook dinner.
Destructive wallowing feels like those same activities are a way of avoiding how you feel; they can take over to the point of mindlessness. One cookie becomes a bag. One episode becomes a whole season in one night. The glass of wine replaces dinner.
Recharging sheds tears for all you’re leaving behind – sometimes buckets of them from so deep in your heart, you suddenly understand why you’ve felt so heavy all these months and years. When they’re done, you’re filled with energy and a capacity to now fill that space with creativity and joy.
Destructive wallowing is needy and cries out of self-pity.
Recharging mourns. Wallowing pines.
Deep down inside (sometimes ever so faintly), recharging holds the candle of hope that you will, and do, feel better.
Wallowing feels like nothing will never be good again.
Recharging stays connected to friends and family, if only internally. Wallowing is completely disconnected.
Recharging naturally shifts back into creativity and a need to move. Wallowing can get stuck.
If you’re wallowing and truly feel there’s no way out, please, get help. Call me. Call a friend. Call a therapist.
If you just need a little bit of sunshine to get the sap running again,
- Put on your favourite music and dance.
- Go outside and take a walk. Go for a run.
- Think about that really great day you had a few weeks back, how you felt and what excited you.
- Get to a yoga class or zumba.
- Visualize a shower of sparkling white light raining down on you and washing away the grey sludge from your heart and your soul.
- Turn the dirt and start prepping your garden for planting.
Your mother was right to send you out for fresh air & exercise. Move your body. Get outside. Connect with Nature. Connect with other people…speak about how you’ve been feeling. Breathe.
What gets you back in the game when you’d rather stay curled up in your comfort zone?
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